That's enough, I'm tired

Hye, this is me, Shafiq.

Its been so long.. too hard to handle..

That's enough, I'm tired.

I called it as a lyric

When I open my eyes, just after a nightmare, all I see is you

When I close my eyes, to enter the dream, all I see is you

When I open my eyes, just after a nightmare, all I see is you

When I close my eyes, to enter the dream, all I see is you

In my thought, your natural look could make the whole world stop and stare

Your personality, I was glued to it

It makes me thrilled when I think about it,

I listen to songs, I watch your photos, I need you all the time

I can’t word it, how to make you understand?

You’re the reason, you make me feel like I’m dying

I like you so much, I wanna spend all my day just with you

I wanna hold you close, I wanna put your smile in my heart

I wanna show you all day,

The other side of me will make you blushing,

I wanna show you all day,

You’re so lovely, can I make you as my own?

When I open my eyes, just after a nightmare, all I see is you

When I close my eyes, to enter the dream, all I see is you

When I open my eyes, just after a nightmare, all I see is you

When I close my eyes, to enter the dream, all I see is you

Why did you drive alone when I can pick you up?

Why do you turn the mirror?

Why you give that smile, wanna do it?

Last night, I’m with you, we are together

I talk like insane to make you laugh,

Don’t mad, last night means last night

Tonight would not be same, people come and go, just like a train

Why you give that warm feeling like you need me?

I knew, you gonna be same

So I’ll enjoy this moment, because you leave me next

I can’t breathe properly now, you’re so beautiful

I can’t just let the moment go,

Don’t say no when you leave, don’t say no

When I open my eyes, just after a nightmare, all I see is you

When I close my eyes, to enter the dream, all I see is you

When I open my eyes, just after a nightmare, all I see is you

When I close my eyes, to enter the dream, all I see is you

My heart is fulfilled by you

Hye, this is me, Shafiq.

Bgn pagi tadi, entah kenapa rasa macam nk menulis. Tulis apa yg tak mampu di zahirkn dgn perkataan. Habiskan masa dari pagi smpai malam hanya utk buat 'benda ni'. Mungkin 'benda ni' di panggil ayat, atau mungkin jugak dipanggil perkataan-perkataan, but i'll call it as my lyric. Just another way to describe what i feel, or its juz a 'dream'. I couln't play a guitar or a piano to create a song, so i write. I use this blog background music as an inspiration. Unfortunately, couldn't find a better title for it. But i do like the words "My heart is fulfilled by you", so i might consider to put it as a title. No offence.

Wordless Wednesday

Tuesday Morning

Hye, this is me, Shafiq
Hari ni sedikit janggal sbb slalunya pagi selasa ni, aku ade klas kul 9-11. Tp kelas hari ni cancel sbb lecturer ade meeting. Cadangnya nk tido n bangun lewat hari ni, tapi terjaga awal pulak. Punca die, smlm tido awl sgt, dlm kul 9 camtu da tido. Haaa..

Jadi pagi ni da tak tahu nak buat ape. Maybe nk kemas sikit bilik, maybe nak basuh moto, or maybe nk siapkn kerja. But i ended up writing post, what a typical me. I'm not too lazy, mungkin akn buat jugak bnda-bnda tu jap lagi. Mcm best pulak lagu tema citer "Dead Man Down" tu. Ok, tak de kena mengena. (Terdengar dlm iklan)

Tengah-tengah tulis ni tibe-tibe ad msj masuk pulak. Suruh datang meeting mlm ni. Aiyakk.. Baru igt nk relax kat umah je hari ni. Mungkin aku akan habiskn the next hour dgn dengar lagu Leessang. Then only akn mula buat semua kerja yg nk buat hari ni. Okay, till nxt time, see ya!

A 'draw'

Hye, this is me, Shafiq.
It's 3.23 a.m. actualy rite now when i start writing this. Couldn't sleep maybe due to anxiety to watch man u vs real madrid this early morning. Holla madrid!

Or maybe, its something else dat force me to stay awake..

Words proved to be the hardest thing to materialise as exactly how i want it to be. Yet, it might be seen from other kind of perspective which clearly will goes another way around. The truth is, the 'fake' one is the easiest to show up. It keep struck in my head, "did u feel the same way i felt?".. U noe, its almost be perfect everytime but its not. Its proved too cunning for me to guess it. Are u? Or did u? We been good all the time, we hav nice conversation, we do jokes, we do share.. But, sorry, i can't read ur mind or even your thought.

Both of us tend to create a gud begining, yet it is flat by the end. People says, "trying to forget the person u close to, is like trying to remember someone u never meet". You and I, we’re like day and night, which cannot be together, the only thing we split and shared is longing. You ask me why I’m always so busy and silently cry. You say didn’t mean it and that you always believe me u and everything of you that always protected me has now become longing. Alone between narrow streets in tears, in case someone sees, i secretly shed tears.

Even if you’re not next to me for a moment, i get nervous. After letting u go, i easily get blank. I hate the changing world. I forcefully take out your memories... Your name, face, laughter, scent.. There are so many memories u gave to me. There is so much soul that u left to me. They come to life and find to me, but i'll crush them all with the words..