Kill the shadow..

Tak semua impian, mampu dicapai..

Tak semua mimpi, mampu direalisasikan.. 

              & tak semua harapan, mampu ditunaikan..

Cuma, percaya dengan kehidupan sendiri.. & tempuhinya dengan cara tersendiri...

...A message from heart...

It's took time to write dis note. It's been weeks since 'dat' happen. Yeah, dis message juz for u..

U noe, mcm biase note2 yg mcm ni akn ditulis lepas 'a bad conversation'. I dun really noe how to explain this to u. Okay.. I admit dat i not dat good on our last conversation. It's my fault utk itu.

Dear, i want u to noe dat i love u. Yeah, i meant it. It's juz the action didn't strong enough to persuade u to always b by my side. U noe how i am, so do i. I noe myself better. So, i choose one way for me. I choose to stay away from u. Maybe these words would instill some confusion. The words dat u will take it in a different way. But, this is my explaination..

I choose not to b wit u, because i love u. I love u so much dat i've ever imagine. I felt the same way dat i felt years ago. The heartbeat, the joy, the smile.. It feel so lively. Can't stop smiling when ur face is in my head. Love it. But suddenly i noe it is not alright. A feeling dat stop my thought n keep me in a confusion. I am unsure. I am totally unsure, can i give u the happiness?

Like i said earlier, i noe myself better. I will hurt u. I will hurt u in different kind of way. Sometimes, its good, but not in every moment i can take care of ur feeling. Juz throwing words if i said i could change when i no i can't. It's also hurt me to face the fact that i can't guaranty a happiness to u. How could u b with someone like me? How could it happen if i kept doing the same thing, again & again... I juz... I juz don't want u to keep wasting ur time.. U noe, u got dreams to chase for. U need it for a better future prospect, and i don't want to b the reason dat pull u away from it... Every time i'm not acting nicely, its' affect u. Its cost u tears, heartbroken, ur days... Dun ask me whether i'm doing this juz to cover things up, cz i want u so badly. I want u as usual. Juz remember, eventhough i let u go, doesn't meant i want it to happen. Please, don't do stupid things, cz u r mine, n always b mine. Its' juz i'm not the one dat u waiting for...

Who is?

Oh, i was perfect 
For the circus 
if she dared me, i do it 
Love makes you stupid 
i gave it up, But i guess it was not enough 
Cause she never seemed satisfied 
(Oohh) 

i Know i'm not perfect 

But at the end of the day 

Who is ? 
(Oohh) 
she wanted someone thats perfect 
Well Okay 
But can you tell me Who is ? 
(Oohh x2)
she set the bar 
Just above the stars
A rocket could'nt reach it 
But i still kept on reaching
she watched me try
At least a thousand times 
If she loved me, She'd stop me But noo 
(Oohh) 
i Know i'm not perfect 
But at the end of the day 
Who is ? 
(Oohh) 
she wanted someone thats perfect 
Well Okay 
But can you tell me Who is ? 
I saw something worth my future
So wrong So wrong 
In my mind i was all it took 
But i guess i wasn't wrong 
(Oohh) 
i Know i'm not perfect 
But at the end of the day 
Who is ? 
(Oohh) 
she wanted someone thats perfect
Well Okay 
But can you tell me Who is ?

Teruja~

Its been weeks since last talk wit u. Miss those moments. & if there's any chance to hav it once again, i'll spent my entire life waiting for it. Juz one more time, one conversation, & i'll b waiting... :)

Tengok Wayang

Seriously, 'menonton wayang' lebih bagus ayt die sbb kalau 'tengok wayang', macam hodoh je bunyi BM nya. haha

Not the title yg aku nak cite, tapi sebaliknya. Ok. Aktiviti menonton wayang ni mula wujud dalam kamus hidup aku masa aku form 4/5. Before tu aku just tahu ape itu tengok wayang tapi tak pernah pun berkunjung ke mana-mana panggung wayang. Kalau tak salah, one of the earliest movie yang aku tgk rasanye citer "X-men Origins: Wolverine". Da lupa da samada tu 1st filem aku tengok atau yg lain. Huhu..

Its took 16/17 years sblm aku akhirnya menjejakkan kaki ke panggung wayang. HAHA. Bukan ape, family aku not the type yg suka or senang dipujuk untuk pergi menonton wayang. To be frank, benda tu (tengok wayang) bukan menjadi benda yg dibualkan dalam keluarga aku. Apatah lagi nak pergi tengok citer sama-sama. Ianya jadi bahan lawak je bila ada orang yang ajak pergi menonton. So, tak hairan la kalau masuk form 4/5 baru aku 'merasa' tengok citer dalam panggung wayang.

Sejak lepas tu, rajin jugak la aku pergi melawat panggung-panggung wayang serta mengeluarkan belanja sekitar RM10 dan menghabiskan sekitar 2 jam di sana :)

Sekarang?

Walaupun aku bukan la selalu sangat menonton wayang, tapi ada certain movie yg aku nk sangat tengok kat cinema. Tapi tak semua filem yg aku nk tengok tu berakhir di sana, kadang-kadang ianya hanya dapat ditonton di laptop or DVD. Antara movie yg aku teringin nak tengok kat cinema tapi tak kesampaian:

 

Most of this film aku tengok lepas download je. Huhu. Berbalik kepada waktu terkini, sekarang ni diorg tengah tayangkan citer "Adnan sempit 2". Diorg cakap macam best je. Nak tengok... :'(

Tapi, compare dengan citer tu, aku lebih menantikan filem "The Avengers" ! Filem ni menggabungkan beberapa jenis watak superhero dalam 1 movie. Diorg ckp, COMING SOON...

Bagi aku, ni la movie yg wajib tonton untuk tahun ni selepas "I am Number 4" tahun lepas. Memang tak boley lupa perasaan bila tengok citer tu tahun lepas. Wow..! Best movie so far yg aku pernah tengok kat wayang. Mungkin "The Avengers" pulak lepas ni.. Hehe

*p/s: Aku memang lebih terdorong untuk menonton filem yang jenis sains fiksyen macam ni berbanding jenis-jenis lain (kecuali movie yg jenis komedi).

Hari yang sejuk..

Hujan..

 

Hari-hari hujan la sekarang. Sangattttt sejuk. Selalu org cakap masa-masa camni paling best adalah tidur. Tapi, aku lagi suka dengar lagu sebab seronok melayan makna lagu tu + melayan perasaan.. Hehe

Lagi satu, masa sejuk ni memang best menyumbat makanan ke dalam mulut. Hee.. Urpmmhh! Selera makan da seperti biasa. Yeay! Ok. Operasi MENAMBAH BERAT bermula!