It's took time to write dis note. It's been weeks since 'dat' happen. Yeah, dis message juz for u..
U noe, mcm biase note2 yg mcm ni akn ditulis lepas 'a bad conversation'. I dun really noe how to explain this to u. Okay.. I admit dat i not dat good on our last conversation. It's my fault utk itu.
Dear, i want u to noe dat i love u. Yeah, i meant it. It's juz the action didn't strong enough to persuade u to always b by my side. U noe how i am, so do i. I noe myself better. So, i choose one way for me. I choose to stay away from u. Maybe these words would instill some confusion. The words dat u will take it in a different way. But, this is my explaination..
I choose not to b wit u, because i love u. I love u so much dat i've ever imagine. I felt the same way dat i felt years ago. The heartbeat, the joy, the smile.. It feel so lively. Can't stop smiling when ur face is in my head. Love it. But suddenly i noe it is not alright. A feeling dat stop my thought n keep me in a confusion. I am unsure. I am totally unsure, can i give u the happiness?
Like i said earlier, i noe myself better. I will hurt u. I will hurt u in different kind of way. Sometimes, its good, but not in every moment i can take care of ur feeling. Juz throwing words if i said i could change when i no i can't. It's also hurt me to face the fact that i can't guaranty a happiness to u. How could u b with someone like me? How could it happen if i kept doing the same thing, again & again... I juz... I juz don't want u to keep wasting ur time.. U noe, u got dreams to chase for. U need it for a better future prospect, and i don't want to b the reason dat pull u away from it... Every time i'm not acting nicely, its' affect u. Its cost u tears, heartbroken, ur days... Dun ask me whether i'm doing this juz to cover things up, cz i want u so badly. I want u as usual. Juz remember, eventhough i let u go, doesn't meant i want it to happen. Please, don't do stupid things, cz u r mine, n always b mine. Its' juz i'm not the one dat u waiting for...
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