warkah utk mak...

Suda hmpir 1 tahun aku kat UNITEN...
Mcm2 pengalaman yg aku lalui...
Ada yg baik, tak kurg jugak yg buruk...
Semua 2 masih aku ingat...

Tapi...
Tulisan di blog ni hanya utk meluahkn isi hati yg lama aku pendam..
Isi hati yg telah mnjadi barah dalam hidupku..

"Mak, 'D' tak happy kat sni...."

Entah knpa air mataku mengalir tika aku tulis perkataan ini...
Suda lama rasanye tidak ku tumpahkn air mata ini...

Smlm,
Aku mnyatakn ingin pulang ke rumah..
tp mak jwb... "isyhh, tak payah la balik.. Kn mggu lepas baru je balik."

Mak,
Andai bisa mak bc tulisan ini,
Pasti mak tahu knpa 'D' nk balik..

Mak,
Kalau boleh,
'D' nk balik tiap2 mggu..
Kalau boleh,
'D' tak nak duduk sini da..

Knpa?

Cz i hav nobody here..

I am alone mum...

I juz lost everything dat i used to hav...

Everyday,

I deeply cry in my heart...

I'm unsettle at here...

I dun like being here...

I'm struggle to make myself feel comfortable..

I didn't like every single things here...

I hate it!

Dats y when u call me, I am delighted.

Cz i noe,

dat i still hav sumthing..

dat 'sumthing' is u...

But,

I juz realise 1 thing.

Not everything we hav,

will last 4eva..

Mak,

When u talk dat words "tak payah la balik",

Ouchh,

Dat is big blow 4 me...

The only single things dat make me feel better,

Is when i noe dat i will comeback by the weekend...

Yeah,

I don't hav it anymore...

I can't go home even though i willing to left everything behind juz to makesure dat i could go home...

Hurmm... Nvrmine...

I'll stay here. Dats is wut u want right?

Ok. I'm fine.

Will try not to trouble u anymore...

Terima kasih mak.

But it's does take time before i'm ok...

I love u...